I Know that I will be better

Thought of this and wanted to share it here.

Someone posted this on a forum I read and just wanted to share this, make me smile. And this helps when I get pissed off at a few women that have kids and don't really care, Or take being a parent for granted, and all of the times I want to go off on people that are pregnant and complain about morning sickness and pain.

I Know I Will Be Better

There are women that become mothers without effort, without thought, without patience or loss, and though they are good mothers and love their children - I know that I will be better.

I will be better not because of genetics or money, or that I have read more books, but because I have struggled and toiled for this child, I have longed and waited, I have cried and prayed, I have endured and planned over and over again.

Like most things in life, the people who truly have appreciation are those who have struggled to obtain their dreams, I will notice everything about my child, I will take time to watch my child sleep, explore and discover, I will marvel at this miracle every day for the rest of my life.

I will be happy when I wake in the middle of the night to the sound of my child, knowing I can comfort, hold and feed them, and that I am not waiting to take another temperature, pop another pill, take another shot or cry tears of a broken dream, My dream will be crying for me.

I count myself lucky in this sense, that God has given me this insight, this special vision with which I will look upon my child, that my friends will not see.

Whether I parent a child I actually give birth to or a child that God leads to me, I will not be careless with my love.

I will be a better mother for all that I have endured, I am a better wife, a better aunt, a better daughter, neighbor, friend and sister because I have known pain.

I know disillusionment and I have been betrayed by my own body, I have been tried by fire and hell many never face, yet given time, I stood tall.

I have prevailed, I have succeeded, I have won.

So now, when others hurt around me, I do not run from their pain in order to save myself discomfort, I see it, mourn it and join them in theirs.

I listen.

And even though I cannot make it better, I can make it less lonely, I have learned the immense power of another hand holding tight to mine, or other eyes that moisten as they learn to accept the harsh truth, and when life is beyond hard, I have learned a compassion that only comes from walking in those shoes.

I have learned to appreciate life.

Yes, I will be a wonderful mother.

~ Anonymous

Suprise, Mom. :-)

I work on Fridays as a waitress and a guy came in. We started talking and he was telling me about he just got to the USA after 5 YEARS of being deployed to Guam in the Navy he was in town to surprise his Mom (tear). But he went by there and she wasn't home so he walked up to my job. We where talking more and I came up with something I wanted to run by him. Which I was going to call his Mom's cell and tell her that she had won a gift certificate but had to come within 2 hours to claim it. Next he asked if there was a florist nearby that he could walk to. Which there isn't one close by so I told him that he has to wait their so I grabbed a phone book and told him to have them deliver it. So 4:15 gets around I call her again and she is on her way I got him to hide  and when she came in he came out and she just started crying. It was so amazing to be a part of and watch. I only wish I had my camera. :-) They thanked me so much and he said that he really couldn't thank me enough. :-)