I Know that I will be better

Thought of this and wanted to share it here.

Someone posted this on a forum I read and just wanted to share this, make me smile. And this helps when I get pissed off at a few women that have kids and don't really care, Or take being a parent for granted, and all of the times I want to go off on people that are pregnant and complain about morning sickness and pain.

I Know I Will Be Better

There are women that become mothers without effort, without thought, without patience or loss, and though they are good mothers and love their children - I know that I will be better.

I will be better not because of genetics or money, or that I have read more books, but because I have struggled and toiled for this child, I have longed and waited, I have cried and prayed, I have endured and planned over and over again.

Like most things in life, the people who truly have appreciation are those who have struggled to obtain their dreams, I will notice everything about my child, I will take time to watch my child sleep, explore and discover, I will marvel at this miracle every day for the rest of my life.

I will be happy when I wake in the middle of the night to the sound of my child, knowing I can comfort, hold and feed them, and that I am not waiting to take another temperature, pop another pill, take another shot or cry tears of a broken dream, My dream will be crying for me.

I count myself lucky in this sense, that God has given me this insight, this special vision with which I will look upon my child, that my friends will not see.

Whether I parent a child I actually give birth to or a child that God leads to me, I will not be careless with my love.

I will be a better mother for all that I have endured, I am a better wife, a better aunt, a better daughter, neighbor, friend and sister because I have known pain.

I know disillusionment and I have been betrayed by my own body, I have been tried by fire and hell many never face, yet given time, I stood tall.

I have prevailed, I have succeeded, I have won.

So now, when others hurt around me, I do not run from their pain in order to save myself discomfort, I see it, mourn it and join them in theirs.

I listen.

And even though I cannot make it better, I can make it less lonely, I have learned the immense power of another hand holding tight to mine, or other eyes that moisten as they learn to accept the harsh truth, and when life is beyond hard, I have learned a compassion that only comes from walking in those shoes.

I have learned to appreciate life.

Yes, I will be a wonderful mother.

~ Anonymous

Mommy and Me group Vent

What is on my mind? Humm, well the biggest issue for me lately is feeling like I do not fit in anywhere. Yeah I know, this sounds like something someone in their teens has problems with. But somehow I have found myself in that predicament.

Lets start off with the Mommy and me groups. Either I run into the problem of not being extreme enough for them or to extreme for the others. (Also lets not forget about the other factor of I'm a hot tempered red-head, and sometimes dealing with hormonal bitches is not in my to-do list of the day) I'm sorry I really don't believe in the whole Chiropractor for EVERYTHING. There are times when you need to go to the doctor. Along with what about the cost??? Also on the breastfeeding issue, yes I agree 100% that it is best and you should try to do it but there are those like me that desperately wanted to but could not. I tried for as long as I could but never got the supply along with having d-mer. I do not get the "parents" that spank I don't get how anyone can say that is right. I don't spank my husband for not taking out the trash, I don't spank my waitress for forgetting my drink refill, all of these cases I would be arrested, so how can you justify hitting a child because you can simply get away with it. Also no pregnancy is a mistake or a surprise, simply put you had sex and therefore no matter what precaution you took you CAN get pregnant. I am against letting babies cry-it-out. They are crying because they need something so be a parent what you signed up for and comfort your baby. 


To be Continued and this seems like it is turning into a Mommy Vent. LoL, This Momma needs to go to bed so I will finish tomorrow. :-)