Pregnant Women in Public

Everyone loves to talk, touch a pregnant women in public. But maybe it is best not to??

This has been running though my mind since about a week ago when I was holding LM a certain way with a dress not so flattering. A lady asked me how far along I was which still even though I have a baby it is hard to still think of pregnancy because of how many losses I have had. And my desire to have another one that still is filled with a huge fear of many more losses. This along with keeping up with a few blogs about Mom's not ending a pregnancy even though the outcome doesn't look to great, has got me thinking.

What if the person just miscarried, gave birth to a stillborn, baby might not make it???

There are so many what if's??

There are some that their baby is facing challenges ahead that they want to talk about it to raise awareness.

There are those that want you to ask them because they want to still enjoy pregnancy and want to make the most out of their time they have with their baby's.

What about the ones that are on the verge that day of breaking down and don't want to get reminded of their baby's fate.

Of course I'm not saying for these women it should be taboo to talk about. Because it shouldn't be along with miscarriage. Everyone that wants to talk about it should and they shouldn't be looked down upon for doing so.
And every life has a story to tell whether they are here for a short amount of time or a long amount of time.

I don't really know the answer to any of these questions or even if anyone has the real answers to them. I remember being pregnant with LM and being asked and still being asked if she is my first baby. A lot of times I want to say no and most of the time I do say no because she is not my first baby.

46 Mins to bitch

:-) I have 46 mins to tell you about my day or just something in general because I don't want to go without a day of blogging..

Today I dealt with people at work that made me want to ram my head into a brick walk multiple times. Another server that is okay but pissed me off because I HATE other servers going to MY tables. I got this I have been doing this over 10 years. I'm the highest tipped one there I don't need anyone to go to my tables and lower my tip. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. That highly annoys me and it isn't the fact that I wasn't able to take care of them.

I so miss the other day I got to talk to an old friend for a few hours on the phone. OHHHH, how I missed talking on the phone and not though some social networking site that is complete BS. I miss the time before this text message and internet took over. Do kids even pass notes in school anymore :-(.


I got to play poker today, so great to take out some assholes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I felt so much better.

Oh and I NEED a shower I now smell worst then a trash can. TMI I know but I'm just free writing whatever comes to my head.


Ah, now that didn't take that long still have 34 mins left of the day. :-)

Suprise, Mom. :-)

I work on Fridays as a waitress and a guy came in. We started talking and he was telling me about he just got to the USA after 5 YEARS of being deployed to Guam in the Navy he was in town to surprise his Mom (tear). But he went by there and she wasn't home so he walked up to my job. We where talking more and I came up with something I wanted to run by him. Which I was going to call his Mom's cell and tell her that she had won a gift certificate but had to come within 2 hours to claim it. Next he asked if there was a florist nearby that he could walk to. Which there isn't one close by so I told him that he has to wait their so I grabbed a phone book and told him to have them deliver it. So 4:15 gets around I call her again and she is on her way I got him to hide  and when she came in he came out and she just started crying. It was so amazing to be a part of and watch. I only wish I had my camera. :-) They thanked me so much and he said that he really couldn't thank me enough. :-)